At last I'm finally ending this torturous 10 blog project (jk) and shutting it nice and tight.
In the beginning, I can say confidently that I was way happier then I am now. 2015 is not starting off too good for me, this has seriously been the worst month ever.
Winter break sucked, I got dragged into a lame family vacation which only made me fall behind in school, made me sick and got me a butt full of mosquito bites. When I came back I got face punched by all the homework and work I had to make up, got my wallet and boots stolen on the same day, the one person I thought would always be there for me is acting like I don't even exist (add that to the list of so called "friends" I've had) and the bird I've had since elementary school died.
I can literally hear god laughing at my pain.
But looking back at these blogs it shows I was happy at one point and I just need to channel back to the things that really make me happy.
I've realized the things that truly make me happy are the most simplest things in life. I don't need much to keep me content just as long if it's what I want to do and it's not something I was manipulated into doing. The only thing that's been keeping me from throwing myself in front of a truck has been track. Just going and working out with my friends is the one thing I look forward to now a days and it's only conditioning and I'm so pumped for track season to start! All week I've been in a slump, I was desperately looking for a way out and really couldn't find one, the weekend was the slight glimmer of hope that kept me going through the week and as it turns out it really helped. All I really needed was some much needed sleep, watching Netflix and Grease with a really awesome friend and eating some much deserved goodies.
It's going to be a working progress trying to get myself out of this slump. I just have to wake up and tell myself " I will get through this, I will make a difference today, I will get my shit together!" I probably won't but giving myself a pep talk makes me feel better.
Weird as it is, this blog made me realize I always have something to smile about even when everything looks pretty bleak and happiness is something I'm going to have to work at whether I like it or not but as for now I'm going to celebrate on finally completing and turning in the latest assignment I've ever done.
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Vanessa, I really enjoyed reading this and I am not just saying that - I told Mr. Bill about eleven times how funny you are and I'm sure he's like "Bruuuuuuhhhhhh." Ha ha. You were serious yet light-hearted, real and witty. This was also just good writing - you had interesting syntax and diction and it was fun to see what you were going to do next.
ReplyDelete100/100 content & 100/100 vocab