Friend or Foe?

Friends are in both of my lists for good reasons. 

I've had plenty of friends growing up and to this day I have enough to keep me busy in the hallways and during the weekend. I've always had two types of friends, the "friend" which is more like an acquaintance but exceeds that just a tiny smidge which leaves me no choice but to categorize them as my friend and then there's the "close friend" which is like a best friend but I choose not to label it like that cause i hate that term, there never is a gray area it's really black and white with this kind of stuff for me. I keep it like this because as a kid I used to think everyone in the whole wide world was my best friend, they loved me as much as I loved them but it turned out that the world isn't filled with gum drops and rainbows. 

I'm no stranger to betrayal, I've had a lot of "best friends" and we'd be inseparable for a while and then out of no where BAM! It'd be like it never happened, they would drop me like I never existed and they'd leave me looking like this

I feel a big part of why this happens so much is because of my gender. Girls are just plain mean, cold hearted bitches. 

I used to get really butt hurt about this kind of stuff and try anything to get them back but then I realized that it's not worth my effort to win them back when it took them less than a second to cut me out of their life.

From this experience I've been more cautious in the people I hang around with. 

I've also been in favor of having guy friends especially gay ones, they're just so much more easy going and less backstabby. I only have 3 real friends and only one of them is a girl. I know that this blog has been more negative but friends are one of the best things in life, I just haven't been too lucky in having the right ones.

I used to want to be the lone wolf, be my own best friend, not needing anyone but myself but it seemed like I'd live a very lonely life. I can be alone without feeling lonely but I've always felt that it's better to share my life and experiences with someone I care about. 

I know it's a long shot but I hope high school ends like it did in Grease where everyone somehow ends up as friends again and be remembered forever like shoo bop shoo wadda wadda yipitty boom de boom. 

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I hope you've watched the movie cause this would make no sense if you didn't

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